It's been a long time...

The reason I haven't posted in a while is because, I changed my mind on whether or not I want to make this public. I do have another blog that is private between me and my weight watchers community online. I know this sounds kind of rude, but when you make things like this public with your family and friends, they always have expectations, or at least it seems that way. And everytime you see someone they ask you how you're doing. I don't want that.. I want it to be a normal conversation, not about my weight all the time? So if you see me on facebook or in person, don't ask about my weight, save it for here.. Otherwise, I won't be posting anymore..

When I weighed in a few weeks ago at my biggest weigh of 296.8. I can't really say I couldn't believe it, but I didn't want to, that's for sure. 6 years ago I only weighed 180 ... I want to look even better than that, and feel better than now, and I will.. eventually.

I started weight watchers about 3 weeks ago, I haven't committed to it as much as I should but I'm down 2.6 so that's a good start. This week I'm committing to more exercise and healthier eating. I'm so glad to have found a program that worked.

I always made excuses about not being able to afford weight watchers, but I ate out almost everyday, so that was a dumb excuse. I'm always up and down, I lose 20 then quit, lose 10 then quit. This time, I'm not.

I'm done fooling around and feeling like an elephant. I'm done having sore feet, sore back and sweating in areas that are bizarre (Sorry if you find that gross, but this is my blog :p). I'm done being self conscious. I'm done wondering what others think, because I'm doing this for nobody, but ME :) !