It's been a long time...

The reason I haven't posted in a while is because, I changed my mind on whether or not I want to make this public. I do have another blog that is private between me and my weight watchers community online. I know this sounds kind of rude, but when you make things like this public with your family and friends, they always have expectations, or at least it seems that way. And everytime you see someone they ask you how you're doing. I don't want that.. I want it to be a normal conversation, not about my weight all the time? So if you see me on facebook or in person, don't ask about my weight, save it for here.. Otherwise, I won't be posting anymore..

When I weighed in a few weeks ago at my biggest weigh of 296.8. I can't really say I couldn't believe it, but I didn't want to, that's for sure. 6 years ago I only weighed 180 ... I want to look even better than that, and feel better than now, and I will.. eventually.

I started weight watchers about 3 weeks ago, I haven't committed to it as much as I should but I'm down 2.6 so that's a good start. This week I'm committing to more exercise and healthier eating. I'm so glad to have found a program that worked.

I always made excuses about not being able to afford weight watchers, but I ate out almost everyday, so that was a dumb excuse. I'm always up and down, I lose 20 then quit, lose 10 then quit. This time, I'm not.

I'm done fooling around and feeling like an elephant. I'm done having sore feet, sore back and sweating in areas that are bizarre (Sorry if you find that gross, but this is my blog :p). I'm done being self conscious. I'm done wondering what others think, because I'm doing this for nobody, but ME :) !

Intro

So, I've decided to keep a blog about my weight loss, SO.. here it is!

My weight was always a struggle for me but now it's to the point where I can't take it anymore.
 I'm going to list of some reasons of WHY I should lose weight, some may be quite obvious.. obviously. And then I will post how much I currently weigh. I will continue to add more reasons throughout my weight loss journey:

1. Health: It would be nice to walk somewhere without feeling dead when I get there.. Even extremely short distances.

2. Clothing: I hate going to the mall now because the only place I can shop at is Wal-Mart and it SUCKS.

3. Hygiene: Obviously you're thinking I'm disgusting because I basically just said I was unhygienic,  but in fact, I'm very hygienic, but that doesn't stop me from sweating like crazy when I walk from class to class then wonder if everyone thinks I smell.

4. It hurts being fat: When I was tiny, I always wondered if it hurt being big and I guess this wasn't really the way to answer my question, but at least it's been answered. It doesn't hurt all the time, just doing certain things. My back hurts A LOT. And my feet get extremely sore when only standing for an hour.

 5. Food: For the sake of all the food in the world, I should lose weight so I don't eat it all.

6. People: I guess I kind of make people feel sort of awkward when I joke about my weight. And also so they will all stop telling me how heavy I breathe.

That's all I have for now.

Monday, December 9th Weight: 310.8
Monday, December 16th Weight: 307.4

My goal weight is 150, and I'm 3.4 pounds closer than I was when I started..
Bye, for now.